things i have been thinking

When i start this blog, i intend to use it as a diary,recording the things i don't want to forget,but i have not been doing this for awhile.
Things are changing in my life.
Everythings are happening so fast , also so little at the same time. Everyday I have a lot of things to do, but looking back , it looks like i have accomplish little.

here is the record of my life.

1976; i was born in taunggyi.
since young i was told i am bright, it was a happy childhood,but i have a lot of imagination, i will make things up, and think about as real. I dream a lot, but i am not sure what i want with my life. I was successful in school. Teachers love me. I have lots of friends, but i am selfish.
We don't have much money, i don't think we were poor.


1987; this was the year, Me and my brother were taken to live with my aunt. It was a year of nightmare.
We didn't have much money , but we were happy. We do as we like, moreover, we are loved. It was our home, no matter how small or big. But in MANDALAY, I and my brother live in a big house with lots of maid. But we are not treated as son and daughter of family. We were treated as burden. It was finished after one year. but i think it is a bad idea to let children live in relative house. I saw many incidence, it is not good for any one, not for the child,not for the relative who housed them. That is a lose -lose situation. One person never, ever should let a child live in a relative house,for what ever reason, At least not before 18.



1994
I Passed tenth std with flying colors.



1996 i attend medical school in IM 1


1996-1997
Ist and 2nd MB
these years were bad for me, i was away from home, i don't have a personal space, i don't have time, i am not happy, and i was controlled by a manipulative friend.



1998-2000
school were shut down for political reason, i was bored with nothing to do.i meet some friends, i am lonely and i have no close friends.


2001
go to taiwan for first time, work for a short while in a factory, for 21 days, get a glimpse of what working in factory mean, then work as a dentist assistant.
I was not happy in that job, i hate it, and there were lots of difficulty, I was a joke, but some people were good to me.It was suck to be a weakling.

2002-2005
go back to medical school.
i was known all over the school as smart, i have good friends,those years were good years. I have lots of good friends, and they are ready for me every time.


2006-2007
came to taiwan, start working in 安泰hospital, i was successful there.I finish USMLE step 2 ck and step 1 while working. I have friends, i have target and i earn some money by myself.



2007-2008
a year of nightmare.
even though i finished USMLE step 1 and 2 ck, i cannot sit 台灣國考because my documents are not verified.i try to apply for US visa, but was rejected 2 times.
i have friends in my work place, loved by nurses and my consultants. but i feel like a failure,i may have a mild form of depression in that year.


2009
i sat 台灣國考 and get 醫師執照, not only me , also two of my friends, who were together with me through these horrible times.i am very happy for a while. then things are starting to change.

today is
july , 4, 2009
i am standing at a cross-road.
i will be 33 in next month.
i will start working, training in a medical centre.
i will leave my friends behind and will have to face unknown.
in a way, i want to go, i like the challenge.
Only one thing that make me unhappy recently,is i feel too old, i am 33 and starting as R1, It is a blow to my self esteem.
But all in all,i am expecting the new step in my career.