i check my eyes today

i get my eyes checked up today, the doctor said, there was a small area of retina detachment, which he saw months ago. but it was not getting bigger, so keep on follow up.
There are a lot of floaters in my eyes, He say there is no treatment for that.
The rest are the same, The visual acuity is not getting worse.
But the changes will be more prominent if i keep on using my old glasses.
I am a bit scare.
But i paid my credit card loans today, at last i am debt free.
(But i will taking more soon)

what i feel about things

When i was about 11 year old, i went a trip with my relative, we use a car Datsun,there was an open window at the front, the wind is blowing from that window, my aunt told me to sit at the middle , to avoid catch cold.
Then i saw a young maid, who was about the same age as i was sat in the front, she was wearing a thin blouse, but i was wearing a sweater, she had blue lips because of cold. I got up and change my place with her. My aunt couldn't say a thing in front of other people but scolded me in private, she thought i was foolish.
but i saw the girl about 15 yr later, she remembered the small incidence when every one else had forgotten.
when i feel something is not fair, i want to change, but may be this is not possible in every case. i learn that now.
sometimes i am too stubborn. but
There is a well known saying
ALL MEN ARE EQUAL, BUT SOME MEN ARE MORE EQUAL THAN THE OTHER.

taiphone day

Today, i am on duty, but there is a big storm coming,
In evening, i go out for one trip to 7 -eleven, There was raining heavily and i was wet.
I think, when natural disaster like this occur, there is the difference between material wealth and poverty become more apparent, whatever way u look.If a person is in bamboo hut during a storm, how can he feel secure.
So it is the difference between money and poverty, vulnerability and security.

today i start studying

i start , i mean i really really start studying today.
from now on, i will stick to my study, and i bought a book today. this time i am serious

little mouse eating fruits

good luck for my sis

my sis will going to sit exam tomorrow, wishing her the best of luck

i must study now

i know 6 people who took taiwan lisence exam this july. only one passed, i feel a bit shaky, i must start studying now.
i plan since first day of this month,but i failed, now i need to plan another timetable,

some one kill 9 people

i heard on the news that a 23 year old student in FINLAND, open fire into school,killing 9 people and hurting a lot more. Before the shooting, he upload his photos of shooting on U tube,
I don't understand why people have to do things like this, what i think is that he wants attention.
i think wanting attention is the worst thing , it can destroy people .That is why people are doing a lot of foolish things just to get attention.
may be i am wrong, but in the past, people know each other, what ever happen, the whole village will know about it,
but in this world,no body know anyone any more, may be that is why there are a lot of suicide.
just to be talked about.

another duty day

today is another duty day,
my sis is taking leave to study, i wish her best of luck.
today, i make some tarot reading for her, the tarot said the way to success is to use cold logic, think generally and she will be ok.
today, a cardiologist dr shu, scolded us, he said he just checked charts and our progress notes are very bad, don't know what are we writing.
otherwise everything was fine.
i now know how to do composite photos.

little mouse

today i feel depressed

i saw ACLS marks today, i passed, but i feel depressed due to there are a lot of things i want to do and i cannot do as well as i want to.
i got 78 but a person i told the answer got 80,
tomorrow i have to do some presentation, dr LI help me, I am grateful for his help but i feel a little depressed due to his attitude, he is helping me but at the same time he is aknowledging that we are lesser than they are.

hi,

yesterday, i was on duty, so i spend today sleeping and watching TV, it is already 11 pm now and i feel a day has been wasted.

the book i read recently

i bought a new book recently, memory keeper's daughter, but i don't like it much, a doctor who knows that his daughter has down's syndrome, gives her away and tell his wife that the child dies.
but the secrete causes the ruin of his marriage.
i don't know but why a person cannot recover from something? bad things happen to people, that is true, but all survive and can live a happy life if one wanted, it don't need to hold on to the past like that ,
i think i am a sensitive person, who can feel and keep my emotions longer than most people, but i don't think even i will understand this sort of thing,
how long a person should be suffer for a tragic episode, 20 yr, 30 yr, all his life, what a bore.

today i sit ACLS

I sit the ACLS for second time today, it was 2 years since i sat the first one, a lot of things has been changed.
i think i will pass.

boring day

today, i attend ACLS course, it was boring and feel like a waste of time, i don't know why i feel like that,but i feel bored.
good things today,
1,1 can understand what they are teaching easily.I can keep up with the lesson.
2, i drink good coffee today
3.i can get a certificate without paying myself,ha ha,
hee, but i feel too lazy to study/

little mouse, he is a definitely look like one

one of the best things in my life, upto now

good things and bad things today

i decide will write 3 good things daily
good things today are
1. i called exam department today and they say i don't need any more documents, also confirmed by my friends
2. today, i eat chicken wings bought by my sister.
3. and i got free 1600 tw $ in phone bills ha ha,

and for sis, i build a blog for her ,so we can contact each other where ever we are and what ever we are doing.
bad things today
1. i have to get up early and attend ACLS tomorrow,hmmmmm

what is a job in a big hospital look like

Tomorrow we need to attend classes concerning resuscitation. ACLS it was called.
What I want to know is this.... can we really save a person's live.Of course i have helped in some CPR , some people make it, at least for few days, some of the old people give up. some keep on, some became totally bed-ridden and dependent.make a lot of stresses on family.
what is better?
let a person go natural course?
or do everything we can to make him/her lives longer?
no one can predict the outcome, no one can know the consequences of our heroic measures. so what do we do?
when our loves one are involved.

i feel chest tightness

today, is the second day my brother's family leave for myanmar, the first day they go, i feel strangely relieved. i tidy the house, and enjoy the quiet and stability.
but after the initial tidiness, the house feel too big, and too quiet, it is strange the a person so small will take up so many space in the house.
one of my patient, who is only one year older than me , is transferred from our hospital to tertiary center with impending respiratory failure.
i did not go and see her today, because i know something is not quite right with her, but i saw her yesterday, i think she suffered from a sort of virulence viral infection, but now i feel a little chest tightness today, life is so fragile,
there are lots of things to do and so little time to do all this, but i don't want to work too hard either.
but there are a lot things need to be done daily. sometime i feel overwhelmed.

things i have been thinking

i am 33 now,
what i am thinking is that what make a person happy.
because seeing a lot of ill people in hospital, i began to think the most important thing for a good life is to be healthy,
i am not suffering from any sort of illness yet, but i am not particularly healthy either.
so
i need to do exercise, eat well and take good care of myself.also i need to meditate,be peace with myself and my surrounding, just because ,physical health is also dependent on mental health.
the second thing is be have lots of friends and be respected. just do my job well
that is not a problem.
but i need to have finicial security.i must have a good planning and also good insurance policy.