a strange day

This is a strange day for me,i did not write in this blog for some days, but recently a lot of things are on my mind.
One thing is a friend from hospital is taking exam, she did ok in a difficult exam, (written test) but she was worried about the oral test, i know it ,and i feel that she is nervous, but i don't know how to help her, if i talk too much , i think i will make her more nervous, on the other hand, if i don't say a thing, it will look like i don't care her, (one thing is certain, she will pass the exam,but she will have a difficult time, let see how correct my vision is, and another competitor she will not pass. )we will know the answer in a day or two. let see how correct i am.
today, i am waiting for her in the hospital , for her to come out and say everything was ok.I really want her to be ok.

second thing is that i heard from one friend, a friend mine( msa ) was married without her parent's permission and now they declared that she is no longer her daughter.I think about her a lot recently, i can feel she is missing me, i don't think she is very happy in her marriage.I DON'T KNOW HOW CAN I DO ABOUT THAT, but i want to meet her, but i hate her busband.i wish i was with her at that time.i wish i could have prevented her.


I Attend ebm course yesterday, to say in short, i was successful,academically, i usually do well. Every one says i am very clever, but actually i usually do not do very well in exam.i don't get very good marks. i sometime feel i am a fake, pretending to be clever, while actually i am just an imposter, doing just superficial things to make people think i am really clever.

I Meet one of elder sisters, she think i am more beautiful than the last time she saw me, but also warn me that i should be getting married, U know, i am getting older every day, but actually for now, i am very satisfy with my life, just now.She also say that i am the cleverest girl she has ever met, i am flattered, but feel a bit like that i don't deserve that, i don't think i am as clever as they think i am , a lot of things are guess work really.